this is molly savannahs friend and i made this site for her... and this is her first blog entry made by me...

mollyruth

this is Savannah, HI i am hanging out with my friend Molly because i love her... ummm i watched magical trevor today... funnn EVERYONE LOVES MAGICAL TREVOR!!?!?!?!     my cat is very much like a dog i taught him to sit the other day... blah blah blah... i have nothing else to say. well...

byebye <3 nanners

trust me the subject has nothing to do with what im writing...im just being a dork...-giggles- well then....hmm, well Im excited cause on the 4th of July weekend, me and Molly are going camping in New Hamshire! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE, she has come with me before..but still..WEEEEEEE But I am also dissapointed because July 8th I am getting my braces, completley..ug and I have been told that the paletal expander ( yah i didnt spell that right, up yours buddy! ) HURTS, like worse than the spacers and I ALMOST DIED with the spacers!! -Le Gasp- I cant take iiiittttttt! well Im done whining for today, Peace Luv

Nanners

 I like the Title of todays post..hehehehehe hmm wel..what to say..hmm well there is two half days left for me and the Finals, I have Science on Monday and on Tuesday I have Spanish then im DONE! YES!FINALS SUCK MONKEY BALLS!hahahahaha it had to be said...realy it did...hehehehee. Fathers day is soooonn! soo..HAPPY FATHERS DAY DUDES...WITH KIDS...hahha, im sucha geek haha. Well I guess thats all for day except tonight I have like 3 other girlz sleeping over, Britt Downer, her lil' sis Kelsey and Michelle Wood, so Im out for the night Dudes, PEACE OUT MUCH LOVE!

~Nanners~

hehehehehee I have Sex Gods isnt that great!?!? SOO MANY! Molly I LURVE you, chris you Rok, Mollsy Rox out loud...im bored and another little kid is sleeping over!!! HELP MEH!

~Nanners~

well last night I had a little kid sleepover again my old neighbor from Easthampton. We watched Fat Albert..AND I SAW JOEL!!! I flipped of course cause im in love with GC expecially Joel DUR! Well yah um..Im gonna try and spend like my whole day on the Compooter cause I wish to watch my friend Ethan dance on his cam. hehehe I made him do a workout in front of the Cam and I seriously think I pissed my pants, that kid is wacked I luv him! Sweetness two more half day kinda of Finals! Im soo excited! But I was told I had a 30 on my History Final, Figures eh? BUT I got like C on my language finals YESH! Well thats it for today I suppose, my allergys are bothering me DAMNIT

~Nanners~

I cant believ this, Aiden my baby bro, his dad, not mine, is flipping out because my mom is dating someone and he wants her back, so me and mom brought Aiden to Kevins ( Aidens Dad ) house and we were going to drop him off and Kevin out of nowhere he goes oh yah I need you to yake Aiden for now im not ready to take him yet. He went insdie came back otusdie stroming and peeled out away from the house in his car. So now Im at ho,e and moms on the phone with him, this is really frikken scary, and he wants Aiden to go back, he must be crazy, I think he is! He has never acted like this before! Well I have to go now, Oh and Molly I saw Jeremy hanging out with some kids on my way to Kevins..just thought I would tell you that

Scared out of her mind

~Nanners~

Hmm well I still have one more day for finals tomarrow is Spanish then Im outta there! Well today I felt as idf I had the LONGEST study hall EVER! And this kid Jordan Ryan (my ex) was like...all over me..AGAIN Im fucking sick of him, he's sooo disgusting...grr...Hmm..well what else..? I dont know yet, its still early in the morning kinda so..I might make another entry tonight..

Forever Confused

~Nanners~

im tired..just felt like blogging it for the hell of it....yah....-yawns- I just watched Resident Evil Apoolypse for like...the 15th time..I love it but it made me tired..

Forever Confused

Hola Peoples! I am at wonderful Mollys house today..SKOOLLLSS OUT For SUMMER! hehehehee Im SOOOOOO Happy! Dude hey! So yah IM sleeping at Mollys! w00t w00t! I Luv her dearly and she is BOOTIFUL! Soon we will watch the Spice World mooovie...they rok out loud...well I love Scary personally..but yah.....well then Im off to go Love people..and watch MOOvies

Forever Confused

~Nanners~

Wow, last night was CA-Razy! Well I went to Mollys, off her bus and we watched like..a bit of a movie I forgot what it was but yeah, then we rode bikes down to the Bend and swam in the river for liike..2 hours until Mollys mom came, she brought Nich and Kyle and they all went swimming for a little while and I did again too I made Molly go but not for long. Then we went back to Mollys me and her watched Bend it Like Beckham ( i dont know how its spelt...w/e ) and we did crazy pastel makeupy things to our eyes, we then went down to the local store and got snacks then a little bit later we went to eat at Friendly's after we ate me and Molly went across the street to a movie place and bought a movie then got one for free casue the store was having a close out sale so..yeah.((Mollys mom bought me a moovie too...how VERY nice of her ))  We went back to her place and watched some of Spice World I almost past out so Molly suggested we go to sleep..I agreed COMPLETLY! lol and we had taken pics of eachother and shown them to Ethan whom was VERY MUCH pleased but that was like..before everything else happened Im an idiot and dont feel like switching it to the top of everything Ive written..ug...so yah and then me and Molly sat ion the dark of her room, she caleld up Lauren her friend and then she Called up Gary who had Julie on the line too I talked to them..kinda then Molly hung up later on and she passed out then I did but I got bite bya misquito allll night...and it ITCHES LIKE HELL!!!!!!

Forever Confused

~Nanners~

Im in Love! and Im happily going out with the love of my life Ethan..whom Pwns you all! I didnt do much today....I whined about wanting to see Ethan..and people kept telling me to Shut up.....Butt Fuckers....hahahaha, my word...no steals

Forever Confused+Loved

~Spaz~

Yo today was REALLY boring, well I might not be on the computer for a while Im not sure caus emy friends pyhsco sister might tell her mom that Im dating Ethan online, i doubt anyt of this would happen but still I worry....so ayh, tis a boring boring day i was in all day cleaned up a bit and Im trying to make plans to stay over at a house with friends of mine Amanda and Andrea so yah...BORED!

Forever..Bored

~Spaz~

Today Im going to the mall, moms pissing me off, she wants me to shop at Fucking Holister, I have 100$ on a Holister card that dad sent me cause he doesnt like that I dress like a punk, why cant my family except it!?!? GOD! Well after I go to the Mall and fight with mom that Im ONLY shopping at Hot Topic then at night me her Marcia ( her friend) and Chris ( Marcia husband) we will be going to the Easthampton Fireworks I SHOULD be sleeping over a friends house but I have a graduation party to go to tomarrow so...yah.  Also latley I have felt bad, I have TONS of friedns and I didnt get to say goodbye to half of them and that makes me feel bad, I miss all my friends already it really stinks..well Im outta here for today

Forever Confused

~Spaz/Nanners/Banana/Kit~

my day was kinda busy i lyed around for a while in the morning then we went to my coucin Trisha's Graduation party, there was a lake with water falls...I went-a-swimming it was fun and they had a nifty slide..VERY STEEP 0_o yet lot-o-fun. Jeremy (Trishas B/F ) went down the slide head first a couple 1000 times it was fun to watch, he also cut his toe open, he jumped into a small water pocket with his buddy and cut his toe open on a rock...ewy it was bad... So yah I gots a BIT of a tan, I have a small tan line on my back as always, this makes me happy

~SPAZ~

MOLLY AND CHAR ARE LOYALY TOGETHER!

King Char and Queen Ruthy YAY! sweetness eh? Ethan and Me + Charles and Molly=Double Online dating! WEEEEEEEEEE

Forever Happy

~Spaz~

random fact number

1-I talk to myself when im home alone so I dont feel alone....

2-I have conversations with my cat..A LOT

3- I LOVE to take pictures of my friends

4- I have the habit of drawing big boobs on my girl drawings.....

5- My dream is to have a moshpit or to crowd surf!

6- I LOVE ETHAN -blank- Arnold! <3 (( this is my fave number..hehehee ))

7-i dont like this number.......I went through a surfer girl phase after learning how to surf with my daddy in Cali!

8-When I was a little girl I wanted my middle name to be my first..ROSE

9- I always wanted to work on a farm when I was little cause I loved animals..i still do....but farms are stinky...

10-I cant stand my hair...but it is Beautiful...i must confess....

~Spaz~

my fingers on my left hand fucking hurt right now, i was a making mac and cheese and i poured the boiling hot water over my fingers! luckily it was my left hand right now im typing with my right hand. damn this stings.....help me!

~Spaz~

Well now I had a strange weekend, I slept over a freinds house with 2 girls, they flipped out about..oh say...3 in the morning we heard there dog barking and they though someone broke into the house, Im sleeping in the middle of the two, one has my in a deathgrip by hand and the other wont shut her mouth about being scared. Im lying there trying to sleep I literally stood up locked the door jumped into the bed and said

" are you fucking happy now?! The doors locked now go the fcuk to sleep" the room went silent then they started whining again...I was not in a good mood Staying up that late for a stupid reason like that. Oh and then the girls went upstairs quickily and grabbed knives! PYHSCOS! i mean Jesus christ how pathetic can you get!? Wel we eventually fell asleep and now its 2 days later and I still feel like I was up allll night long, oh and lets not forget I come home my mom and uncle are sitting on the couch's watching tv, they look at me and say "ARE YOU HUNGOVER!?" wow...that just says it itself how much my mother trusts me eh? Well I am leaving today to go camping I will be back on Monday night I believe so...I love you all even if I dont know you, Im a lovable person...so...yah....Im confusing myself somehow..damnit

Forever Confused...AND loved

~Spaz~

Well now I got back from camping in the white mountains on July 4th. The White Mountains are in New Hampshire and we camped at Fransted Family Campgrounds in Franconia. So I camped with my buddy Molly, we stayed in a tent, the Dubours stayed in a tent net to us and Kathy,Bob and Sophia stayed in a pop up near us, we were all in one site. So yah me and Molly had the privlige(sp?) of being able to roam around and stuff, it was fun.One day Kevin showed up he was going to be staying in a hotel,he had come to take Aiden whom was staying with us at the time. So the owner Jack,of the campground told Kevin to wait at the front, Jack went to the site and only Kathy was there so he talked to her about not being able to have anymore people in our site, he didnt know that we had Aiden.So apparently Kevin didnt here Jack, he parked and walked down to our site ( Me Molly and Bob were playing B-ball when this all happened) and Jack spotted him and just blew up in his face about how he was breaking the rules. Most of this is Mrs.Dubours fault, she has been pushing Jacks rules since day one of camping there. So Kevin rode off angry, he stayed at the hotel and then the Dubours found out and they packed up and went to the hotel as wel, luckily they let me and Molly stay at the camp with Kathy Bob and Sophia.

Well now I got back from camping in the white mountains on July 4th. The White Mountains are in New Hampshire and we camped at Fransted Family Campgrounds in Franconia. So I camped with my buddy Molly, we stayed in a tent, the Dubours stayed in a tent net to us and Kathy,Bob and Sophia stayed in a pop up near us, we were all in one site. So yah me and Molly had the privlige(sp?) of being able to roam around and stuff, it was fun.One day Kevin showed up he was going to be staying in a hotel,he had come to take Aiden whom was staying with us at the time. So the owner Jack,of the campground told Kevin to wait at the front, Jack went to the site and only Kathy was there so he talked to her about not being able to have anymore people in our site, he didnt know that we had Aiden.So apparently Kevin didnt here Jack, he parked and walked down to our site ( Me Molly and Bob were playing B-ball when this all happened) and Jack spotted him and just blew up in his face about how he was breaking the rules. Most of this is Mrs.Dubours fault, she has been pushing Jacks rules since day one of camping there. So Kevin rode off angry, he stayed at the hotel and then the Dubours found out and they packed up and went to the hotel as wel, luckily they let me and Molly stay at the camp with Kathy Bob and Sophia.

So me and Molly had fun staying, but there was these two dudes who thought me and Molly were stalking them, the camp is small and me and Molly end up near like half the people in the campsite NOT just thoses two dudes so yah I got a little ticked off, it was freaky though one of them had the name Ethan.  Also me and Molly were kind enough to name these HUGE rocks after people. So our rocks were Charles, Paul, Ethan, Colin and Jon i found it to be quite funny.

Forevere TIRED

Æ~Spaz~Æ

well I have my expander in.NOT my bottom braces cause the idiot Orthodontist people had my schedule all screwed up.So yah, the expander doesn't hurt...yet...lol.The expander just gives a really bulky feeling and I have trouble eating, and not to mention I have a lisp, I am pretty sure the lisp will dissapear soon,....at least I hope.

Forever Angry

~Vanna~

WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELL

Today I went to my moms work Picnic, I hung with a friend of mine there, Jaime, she rox, she is a sexy Pitcher for her Dads Softball team.Well the picnic was VERY boring, everyone was eating, I couldnt, I had icecream and bits of popcorn and a VERY soft cookie. So yah, Marcia and Kevin and Aiden were with us, it was ok...me and Jaime went to the playground and ran around it, reliving our younger recess days ( lol ).Some Ghetto dudes watched us for a while, then came ON the playground NEAR us, so me and Jaime acted like they werent there and walked over to the little kiddie playground to play with Aiden (hahaha).So then I had to leave, I said my goodbyes and Marcia....fell in a puddle of mud...Im STILL laughing my ass off...hahahahahhaa

Forever Laughing

~Vanna~

Well right now..I feel very happy, but at the same time Im confused and....I feel down,its a strange feeling for a strange reason.Well for about my whole life I have been a little freak, some assholes say 'oh that hasnt changed'.But since the 8th grade I feel I have changed, and it is a sorry reason why, I felt I had to change because of the assholes.You want me to name off a few? Ok I will and I dont really care if you happen to see your name here- John Mitchell(I dont know how to spell his fucking name....who cares..)Danny Sidel(i dont give a shit about his last name)Anna whatevayourlastnameis, Robby Hurley, Ben Glosh,Ryan Lamontahhsjdjsg whatevs,Andy Blair, well the list goes on and on but hey, my memory doesnt go back far enough.

So now that I have that cleared, let me tell you how I have changed. I went from geeky little prep like cloths to punk ass wear, I want to be a skater,SO seeing as I have Colin and Zach for friends I figure no one should bother me. But sometimes I feel unsecure about myself and what Im wearing,I dont want to be punk anymore..I want to be a skater a rebel, I feel like I am, some say I am, SOME.And I am NOT going to list a name, opne person has a problem with what I want to be like,they have a problem with a lot of things about me, but still I repesct this person.

Ok,so now onto Boys.So my first oh say REAL boyfriend was Ryan from Easthampton, he was no help at all, he was a complete ass and still is, he didnt treat me right at all, I was a fool to keep coming back to him, he pushed me into things as well,but I will say, he did teach me a thing or too about relationships..the hard way. Then I went out with Jordan Ryan about....a year later, I have trouble with guys as you see.Jordan pushed things and after 2 days, I ended it, I know where I stand and he crossed the line.Right now Im with someone that I actually LOVE, not just like, not just for his looks, I loved him before I even saw him (literaly).I have trouble with guys, yes but I am happy as hell right now.

Well I dont know what else to type yet.......oh well today I went shopping with mum and saw War Of the Worlds, a KICK ASS movie, you must all see it....Im outta here

Forever Fearing

~Vanna~

Today was just a bit rushed and scary AND fun.Well mom  woke me up at like 7 to turn the key for my expander, which hurt like hell.I went back to sleep then woke up about 15,20 min later and got up, I took my shower,started my laundry then started cleaning the house.Today Colin came over to hang out, it was funny cause he lives in like Haydenville and the bikeride here was extremly long, he said he had to ask some old dude for directions..hahaha.Then out of no where land, Andrew Stalarki(i dunno how to spell his last name..) and Zach show up, mom was pissed but she quickily got over it.She is such a bug, since I had GUY friends over, she had my uncle come over to make sure we stayed out of trouble AND i wasnt to leave his sight...pathetic i know. Well we didnt do much but hang around the house of course, then I told Andrew and Zach to go since mom didnt like them being there anywayz, they took it fine, we all joke around so...no prob. Yah then Colin hung out with me for a couple more hours, he left to go to Pizza wings n Things in Easthampton but it was closed so he caleld me up and said he was in NoHo so yah....he was going home after that lol.Besides that....it was a boring and slow day..lol

Forever Bored

~Vanna~

Today is definatly NOT kickass, first off I have been on AIM for ages and for the past 3 days I think, Ethan hasnt come on and I miss him like hell....hell...hehehe.Yah and then Today all I have done and still have to do is CHORES, yay!...not. So yah..BORING DAY!....HELP

Forever Bored

~Vanna~

sometimes thats all I hear coming out of some peoples mouths.Anywaaaayyyz today was boring as usall stayed home al day, im hoping tomarrow I get to hang out with some people..yah...and I wish Ethan would come back sooooon and my buddy Charles is back! YAY for Prince Char! lol.Oh and lets not forget some little kid was flirting with me and some other kid was being a fag and another kid was being nice...confusing yes but isnt that life as we know it?

Forevere Confused

~Vanna~

Ethan chatting with me=Happy Savannah! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY

Well I am going to dissapear form AIM for awhile for some odd odd reason......I am thinking about why I am doing this...but hey..I need to think less about the computer right?.....thats hard...well I will be checking Mindsay,Xanga,email and neopets and stuff everyday I suppose....Bye Bye Loves <33333333333333333

Forever Gone

~Vanna~

Ok the computer is really screwy so I might not come on for a while at a time.So last night I had Michelle sleepover, she got her way and slept on my bed while I slept on my floor on tons o blankets and my sleeping bag.Today all I did was complain about not being able to get ont he internet and I went out to eat with mom then came back Im gonna go to sheldons now so...Peace Love

Forever Complaining

~Vanna~

Wel now, my computer was busted up for a while, we JUST got it fixed today.Well nothing much...wait...OK.I have something seriously wrong with me.Within the past 3 days, my tongue began to feel sore and then I started coughing and such.I went to the doctors and they confirmed that I had a virus called Stominitus, it is a viral infection of the mouth and throat.I cant eat or talk, I am starving, I have tried eating and have had only ate ONE whole food product, a wrap,everything else I have been un able to eat.I feel horrible,my tongue hurts SO bad and to think,I am leaving in 9 days for my beloved California....oh the joy I am going through. So yah....I'm missing lots of people seeing as I can't really talk that well and barely anyone is around these days on AIM...im alone...and very sad....

Forever in pain

~Vanna~

well im still suffering from this stupid virus my cough is crazy now,tongue doesnt hurt AS much.Im bored out of my freakin mind.I cant wait to go to Cali...8 more days my friends!

Forever....whatever!

~Vanna~

p.s its CAP LOCKS FRIDAY!

7more days till Cali! I did nothing today so yah...BORING, mom went out tonight..........gerf attacks have happened....and my virus is going away thank god!

Forever talking

~Vanna~

anywayz! Today I will be avoiding the computer for an odd reason, I wanna try and get outside for a while...somehow....YAY 6 more days till California! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. California=love=RAWR...yay!

Forever Excited

~Vanna Van~

Last night I was over at Britts,her little sis wasn't there so..thankgod! lmao.I slept over it ws NIFTY LIKE! We slept in her trailer outside it was nice! lmao. We also discussed her Bday party and what was going on,and we went in her pool and hot tub a couple times..mostly the hot tub cause the pool was cold and I whine too much....hahaha.So yah and today I am just cleaning my place up a bit,Britts over helping and then Im going to her place and Im gonna help her clean out her trailer so she can have people sleep in there for her b day.So yah Im off the computer till tonight I guess.Pecae Out Luvs

Forever Cleaning

~Vanna Van~

Ok so like I said,today I helped clena out Britts trailer thing....it was hrrible, so much dust I was snezzing like crazy cause I have allergies right!?So first we start by clenaing off the counters taking things out of there that take up room and then we decide we are going to clean the little fridge....BAD IDEA! As soon as we open it, we ALL go running out of the camper, I swear something died in her fridge..but nothings in there so I think it got up and ran away form its own horrible smell...! We eventually held our breathe and sprayed it dwn and all,its BEAUTIFUL now! Britt vaccumed and then we both relaxed inside the camper and made deco for the future Britt party/slumber.Oh wait I forgot to mention that the bathroom thing had like mold in the tub....GAH I had to help her get rid of it since no one else would lmao. Alrighty Im hanging around on AIM for a while my friends..Peace Out

Forever Being SWEET!

~Vanna Van~

well today I did nothing really I woke up really late, got on the computer talked to Ethan <33 then got off and did some chores and watched tv...how fun it was....(sarcasm noted) Well then I may be getting off early tongiht..damn my mother...Bye Luvs

Forever being lazy

~Vanna Van~

it is deathly hot outside..I think I got a tan form going down the street to the conveniant store...damn...I will be avoiding going back outside for a LONG time now..well at least for today..that was horrible..so damn hot! Well now Im off to spend my day on the computer..If I am not on AIM now than I will MOST LIKELY be on it tonight about..oh say...8 ish at least I will try... Peace Out Luvs

Forever Lounging

~Vanna Van~

ps 3 more days till California! YAY FOR SURFING!

poll from nick

well now tomarrow is my last FULL day here in Mass for 2 weeks.Saturday around 3 30 I will be leaving for California on a big ole plane.I will miss you peoples! Hugs and Kisses for you ALL! thats if I dont see you tomarrow, cause late tomarrow night I will be with my mother at Paizzanos for dinner and Marcia beloved Marcie will be serving, the waitresses all love me there <333

C Yah Luvs!

~Vanna Van~

p.s Love you Ethan!

Well then, Im getting ready now to go out with my mom...Bar Hoping again, Lmao. Tomorrow I am leaving for California to go see my beloved dad.I am going to be gone for 2 weeks, so I will miss you all Luvs!

Hugz n Kisses

~Vanna~

P.S I love you Ethan! -hugs and kisses- And Ruthy! Love you x 251475869472351253637....lots o numbers!

DUDES! Im in like the great Cali right now  with my little Albino boy friend Hayden, he kicks ass back off the Albino!! So yah uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Im on his computer cause I miss mine and I just had to update, I have WAY to much to say so I will just say one thing that Im extremely happy of and that is that I went bunji jumping dude and it soooo kicked ass!!!! Well Im off my beautifuls Peace Out

Forever missing my computer

~Vanna Van~

Okay well Im home now, if you wanna hear about my trip, ask me on AIM cause WAY to much happened for me to type, I will say the best things though, I went Bunji Jumping, Wakeboarding, Sea Doo'ing, I rode on the wakester and the double tube...I kinda got thrown off and landed on Hayden..hahaaha.Oh and on the Sea Doo, I threw off my dad and step sister, it was kool..but dad held onto me and took me off it too when he fell...lmao.On the wakeboard(wakeboarding is EXTREMELY hard) I got up on my first time!!!!Well then Im off to brag about Vaca to more people, see ya'll in school, Instant message me too see if we have any classes together!

Forever Braging

~Vanna Van~

yah...jdherukwghekdwe <33333333333333333333333333333333

Sneezing and Love

I dont know why I am making this blog but..ok.....yah...right on Mon

foxykit66: Duuuude
ColinMnky: duuuuude
foxykit66: wat is up with your bad self!?
ColinMnky: nuthing at all mon
foxykit66: wow mon
foxykit66: thats crazy mon
ColinMnky: oh ya mon we be jamin jamacan style
foxykit66: yah mon
foxykit66: I laughed...
foxykit66: how fun..
foxykit66: DUDE
foxykit66: ebaumsworld has some great new clips
foxykit66: in there extreme section of vid's
ColinMnky: yea i know!!!
foxykit66: my mum loves your little voice things when you im me
foxykit66: the goona make you groove thing
foxykit66: Zepplin she loves zepplin
foxykit66: she ahd to tell me how to spell it...
foxykit66: im a sad case..
foxykit66: *had
ColinMnky: tell her she is awesome cause zepplin rules !
foxykit66: she just laughed
foxykit66: still laughing
foxykit66: and watching
ColinMnky: haha
foxykit66: she enjoys our oconversation
foxykit66: s
ColinMnky: who wouldnt?!?!?
foxykit66: I dont know..really I dont..
foxykit66: wait wait I know..
foxykit66: my uncle cause he is a butt
ColinMnky: he doesnt count
foxykit66: haha
foxykit66: ok
ColinMnky: arieals in the sky
foxykit66: really!
foxykit66: -looks-
foxykit66: where!?
ColinMnky: over THERE
foxykit66: -looks OVER THERE-
foxykit66: really?
ColinMnky: yea!
foxykit66: looks like a cow to me...
ColinMnky: yea i know its in discuise
foxykit66: hahaaha

^one of MANY amazing conversations with Colin -whatever- Warner

forever laughing

~*Vanna Van*~

*~Here Comes The Rain Again Falling From The Stars*~

I feel like I havent bene here for like ever..well yah I got a myspace account so yah..Mindsay and Xanga are like..nothing lol btu I still hcekc up now and then..well iM off to myspace,you want to add me then send me a message with the link to your myspace and it shall be done Peace out Loves

-vanna<3

I just felt like blogging about something random like the fact that while reading comments on here..I had a wendy's advertisment pop up....odd.....0_o

-vannaface<3x10000

my theory is that the word school must be derived from like latin or something and it means something like..hell! just a theory ^_^

-vannaface<3

anooother new foto =]

me and J.D. looking out el windoow

i havent been on mindsay in soo long. Well, I deleted my myspace not to long ago and I'm very proud of myself or doing so, it was way to addicting and got int he way of my schoolwork. And now its fun to look at my other friends who are addicted and its just lame.  So fellow "mindsayers", hows it going? Im outta here CHOA

-vannarose

wow so I'm listening to the Spice Girls. You have no idea how much i loved them when I was younger, Scary Spice=<3333333

Nows it Hella Good by No Doubt, Yahoo music brings big goofy smiles to my face :] and urges to dance crazy around the house. WOOHOO BYE for now.

J

my allergies are just killing me man.  I'm taking allergra right now and this crap doesn't work at al, the stupid doctor people give me different med's every spring (cause thats when I get hit with my allergies stupid pollen). Today I'm getting fitted for my glasses, cause lucky me I got my mom AND dads bad eyesight in my genes.  I already did all the tests and picked out my glasses so I get them today after they fit them on me.  Finally I will be able to see what I'm doing during school haha.  Well then I'm off to take el shower-o (yes my spanish kicks butt )

BYEE LOVELYS

-vannarose $

spring time DOES NOT like you!

spring isn't pretty its MEAN

spring isn't nice it TERRIBLE

rip stabby stab stab rip rip SPRING ksjfgbskjbkgjbfd

the end.

-vannarose

:] heeeeey. well I played around with my mindsay...critics FIRE AWAY or at least someone tell me if it looks okay, or if I should change it back to its normal thing.

kay bye lovelys.

-vannarose

allergies were TERRIBLE yesturday, now I have to go to school like this kgjbkdfjgbkjfbg. god I feel like shit.  wish me luck.

oh last night that asshole parker called again, I guess I was passed out cause normally I wake up when people call. he left a lame message, not nearly as offending as some of his others so I don't really care, I just can't believe he's still calling..the bastard.  So yesturday I talked on the phone with Ben (my buddy from new york). Bens amazing and I'm gonna kidnap him one day and yea. haha. we have great conversations on the phone.... :]

well I gotta get ready for school now so see ya

-vannarose

MELS HERE

love her. Im outta here EFFERS << hahaaha lame. :]

BYYEEE LOVES

-vannarose

kay..so I woke up to my cell phone alarm clock cause my alarm clock plug got pulled out and I was too tired to fix it up.  I took a shower BUT near the end of my shower I started to get really dizzy.  I almost fell so I turned the shower off and sat on the side.  Sitting didn't help so I got up and went into the living room (with my towel on duur) and layed on the couch for a couple.  That kinda helped, so i got up and dressed.  I hope I don't pass out in school.  SO yesturday I had Mel over, god I love her, it was a releif to have her here cause I don't get to be as loud and crazy as I am around her all the time, only when she's there I don't care what other people think.

so yea we had fun...hahah. good times.

wel I gotta get ready for school.

CHOA

-vannarose

okay! so! progress reports from very few of the teachers cause they are idiots haha.  Well im failing Spanish now, what can I say it's not easy to learn a second language.  My English grade went down a bit, from a B to a C its like 79 so its a lousy C, it ah sno purpose..it should die.  UUUM and a B in Health so yea.  All the other teachers are like missing or aren't prepared to give out grades.  WELL THEN, my tummy hurts agaaaain supposedly im ovulating OH JOY, health has taught me SO much LMAO.  Well I gotta go do homework and chores before mom has a heartattack about it all.  CHOA

-vannarose

okay so today was a half day, it started off and still seems terrible.  So i woke up at what I thoguht was 5, but no, it was 6.  I go tot he bus stop for 6:55 and I got out of the shower today only to relize that it was 6:40. I had a mini heart attack then ran around getting ready as fast as possible. I didn't get to eat breakfast which sucked and I didnt get to take my eye drops so my eyes were going crazy all day.  We get out of school and YAYY my weekend is going to be rain rain RAIN kjfbsjkbdflbsdfljdjg

okay im hungry so Im gonna go shove my face with food. BYE

-vannarose

yea i didn't do anything today consitering the non stop rain.  What I did was stayed on the computer for ages (i know its bad ) and found some sweeeeeet songs for my webjay playlist. go to Webjay.org, the site can go annoying slow sometimes but at least I can make a free playlist and listen to it :] SO fun

one of the songs on there is JERK IT OUT but its a mix with duran duran cause no one had a regular jerk it out working.  Its still amazing and spontanious dance-afiable.....<< i made that word up :]

okay yea its reaally late HAPPY 14th BIRFDAY B.R.O. <33333

okay then G'NIGHT

-vannarose

blondie..atomic...yea. I love all these amazing 80's songs, most one hit wonders and then theres the amazing singers>>Blondie.Pat Benatar.Billy Idol. god i love them :]

Ive bene drowining myself in music ALL day today, it wa snice enough outside for me to go out but I didn't cause well..I have no life.  The above is just me trying to act like im not emotional.  Truth is im feeling pretty emo right now, mollyruth would slap me.  Its the common topic that my emotions hit>>>>>dating status.  I could go on and on about how im upset about my past relationships (which pretty much sucked) and what it looks like in my future for dating...pretty shitty.  For those of you who didn't know I dated 2 people this year.  Steve Morris and Chris Herbert. Both older than me, wierd yes but whatever.  Steve is a senior at my school, when his 18th birthday came around he decided to make up a good ole' story to break up with me "onc ei turn 18 we will be illegally dating and I don't wanna get arrested" BULLSHIT, its only illegal if I don't approve of something going on int he relationship (more likely if we had sex it would be illegal.)(correct me if Im wrong cause I have a strong feeling thats not EXACTLY it but close).  So yea the truth that I found was that he had found some fag in eton.  He had been hitting on her BEFORE we broke up, so he had somone to go to as soon as he broke it off wih me.

Chris Herbert.  Sophmore at some chicopee highschool.  Chris was  amajor dork, I had known him for a while before we started dating and he was a sweetheart and that was something I really needed was someone to be super nice to me.  So after a looong while he got up the guts to ask me out (while I was grounded so it was over text hahaha yea i find it to be funny :] ) SO we started hanging out every now and then but it got hard to hang out cause of our distance, SO after a while Chris decided to end our relationship...how you ask? well he just stopped talking to me/calling me/IMing me ALL contact was DONE, he never told me we were breaking up, I had to find out myself by reading some comments on his myspace..yea pretty fucking pathetic I know.

RAWR parker and I "made up" a lame way of saying it.  but yea i guess him and the boys just wanted to test my anger...well that worked...I found my boiling point. greaaat oh and its true dana doesnt want to talk to me...that sux (cue crying...again).

okay im outta here

-vannafuckingrose

so its mothers day, my moms cousins are taking her out for brinch, its a really shitty day out..yayy :[

uuuuh JERK IT OUTTT

"Wind me up
Put me down
Start me off and watch me go
I'll be running circles around you sooner than you know
A little off center
And I'm out of tune
Just kicking this can along the avenue
But I'm alright

Coz it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it
Running through your bones

And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out

Shut up
Hush your mouth
Can't you hear you talk too loud
No I can't hear nothing cause I got my head up in the clouds
I bite off anything that I can chew
I'm chasing cars up and down the avenue
But that's ok

Coz it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it
Running through your bones

So you jerk it out

Coz it's easy once you know how it's done
You can't stop now
It's already begun
You feel it
Running through your bones

And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
And you jerk it out
Oh baby don't you know you really gotta jerk it out
When you jerk it out baby don't you know you really gotta jerk it out
When you jerk it out baby don't you know you really gotta jerk it out"

:]

byyyye lovelys <3

-vannarose

Mel and I :]

im seasonily challenged..thats why Im wearing a santa hat in the spring :]

<3

USE ONLY SONG TITLES FROM YOUR MUSIC PLAYER, AND ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS

• Will I get far in life? 100 years
•  How do my friends see me? Angel
•  What is the story of my life? 99 luft problems
•  How can I get ahead in life? Rock and Roll all night
•  How is today going to be? Ugly
•  What is in store for this weekend? Girlfight
•  What is my life like at the moment? Trouble
•  How does the world see me? The Joker
•  Do people secretly lust after me? Truly Madly Deeply
•  What makes your hormones rage? Breakfast at Tiffanys
•  What's the best thing in life? Existentialism on Prom Night
•  What is your workout routine ? 30 minutes
•  Where should you go on vacation? Waterfalls
•  What is your strength? The Seduction
•  What the first thing you think when you wake up in the morning? Hot Topic Is Not Punk Rock
•  What do you want to be? Iron Man
•  What is your fetish? Girls not Grey
•  What are you afraid of? Heaven

I stole this from someone else so don't give me credit for this brilliant thing.

1.myspace sucks yer balls. even if you have none.

2.Greent Tea totally owns vitamin water.

3.a certain chick in my school has no idea what she's doing in life, she has better grades than me but has the IQ of a nat, she has a preppy style but still insists on wearing freaking tie like I do, yet her tie makes her stand out liek a sore ugly thumb.  I think ive said enough.

4.HRHS schooldances are overated and actually suck more than life cause all they do is play rap and chicks dance like sluts..yea.

5.DEBS lets just call it the "store where all the girls buy the same dress for semi only to find out AT semi that along with her, 50 other girls have the same dress"

well I was just told I have to go to bed.

6. "go to bed" at age 15 is degrading... :[

NIGHT

-vannarose

heeey

just found out POTC2 is coming out July 7th :]

hmmmmmmmm

today was..blaaaah.

I think I actually learned something in Science cause we had a sub (who is a science teacher) and was actually into to teahcing us about science unlike fatty kisiel.

uuuum. THIS WEEKEND IF ITS NICE OUT bunch of people>>downtown noho to do..well..whatever, all i know is that the boys will be skaetboarding, ill be taking pictures, and Im going to Rozz's Place to get my suspenders :]

well im outta here for now..

bye loves

-vannarose

KAYYY. SO. this sunday at CrabApple something in liek Deerfield I'm going on my class trip, White Water Rafting, im soo pumped and scared.  I think its hilarious how the form you ahve to sign says that "if you die its not our fault, you signed the form and read the risks". im like..oh okay so...don't die :]

but yea im soooo excited

DOOOOOMMMMM G.I.R. <3333

uuuuuuh chalk all over meee..skdfsgb Jon found chalk in my backpacks and me and him=chalk waaaars.

uuuh I need to make myself some food then get cleaning cause if this house isn't VERY clean by the time my mom gets home tonight, then I cant go on the trip at all kfjsbdgjkbdgjkfbg

kay bye lovely's

p.s. tyler sucks at life :]

-vannarose

p.s.s. I have an egg baby now, its a boy and his name is Keagan Lawrence Taylor.He's a little Irish baby.  His carrier is decorated with the Irish flag, and his name. (Lawrence is my daddy's middle name :] )

white watre rafting today, BBL simetime after 5.

wish me luck <3333

holy AHH rafting OWNED.

lmao Mr.Braidmen we had watre fioghts and he soooaked the girl scouts that were rafting too, and he yells to all of us in the boat "we OWNED those girlscouts AND their cookies"

it was pretty sweet. We hit the rapid known as Zor Rapid. that was intense. well its really bad weather right now so ill bbl :]]

-vannarose

whoa hey yea vanna is grounded.  Yes F in spanish and a D in history, yes I rock at school.  okay well yea a second language is hard, and history well...yea I was just slacking...but yea know im gonna get better and start to pay more attention and whatever....yeaaa....okay all that stuff I just said..almost I did without well..kinda without looking at the keys..Im getting better at this :]

uhhh yea the only reason why im on tonight is cause my mom went out to get drunk with her friends. lmao

well then Im off when Im ngrounded Ill fill all you guys in on what has happened the past like....month..er...whatever :]]

bye lovelys <3

-vannarose

yeaaaa I think I already mentioned I was grounded for a while but moms in the shower.  I need  to do my essay for english class but I had to update.  So its hot out and uhhh I went to the cape for memorial day weekend uuuh it was okay.   hmmmmmmmmmmm  Im listening to lovely __Family Force 5__  yeaaaaa I love them well moms about to get out of the shower soo Im outta here.

-vannarose

YESTURDAY WAS JOHNNY's BIIIRFDAAAAY

LOVELOVELOVE.

happy birfday Johnny Depp ^_^

-vannarose.

I'm just not happy.  Home and Dating have struck as a big problem to me.  I'm 15, 16 in March, does it feel like I'm getting older? Not at all, I can't feel older untill my mother starts treating me like it.  She is stuck in the past, she can only see me as this impresiionable young child, her daughter that she refuses to let turn out like she was when she was a young lady.  She's just like her mother, she has no idea (aside from the little abuse she got) that the way she talks to me is just what her mother does.  When my mother tells me I can tell her anything, I know I can't.  I try so hard to talk to her and let he rknow how I feel and that she needs to stop treating me like such a little girl.  She yells and screams and grounds me.  Nothign solved, I have this hate tpwards her that will never leave me untill she gets what i'm saying.  She has drove me so insane I have begun to think that I need a therapist, I need someone to talk to that doesn't know me and can't judge me.  I have done the whole talking to my friends thing, many of them.  I lost the attention of one person and that just killed me, that person told me it was okay to tell him/her everything that was bothering me and that they would comfort me.  But no, after a while of pouring my life out to this person, they up and vanished on behalf of them thinking I was getting too attached to them.  A good reason why I don't tell many people about why im so upset.  I rarely tell anyone and if I do it's someone that barely knows me, or maybe even I haven't even met them at all, I don't even know them.  Knowing that these people don't know much about me gives me a sense of security.  If they get annoyed and stop talking to me or listening to me then it doesn't bother me, and they also can't judge me, they don't know me.

Back to the mother daughter thing.  She constantly says "bullshit, I let you go out with your friends all the time" yea no shit only after you ask me thousands of questions AND while I'm hanging out with them you call me about 10 times to make sure I am where I said I was.  There is no trust between me and my mother.  Thats what gets me so upset, I can't go on being a teenager because she thinks I'm gonna go off and be like her.  I am nothing like my mother, NOTHING.  My father has many times offered for me to live with him, I gladly would.  It's too bad I can't leave massachusetts without going emotionaly insane.  It's taken me 3 years to get the friends that I have now, these people mean so much to me, having these friends means more to me than you know.  Hanging out with them means even more.  As a child growing up I was constantly moving I never kept a friend so I basically missed a large part of my childhood (along with barely seeing my father).  So yea, I love my friends and moving away from them would break my heart, I refuse to make new friends somewhere else and forget about the friends I had here.  Mollyruth-the first person to take me in as a friend when I went to HRHS 7th grade, she's amazing and she is basically part of the family. Don't know what I would do without her.

Zachary&Colin-my first best guy friends these guys are the ones that keep me laughing.

Samantha-Sam is amazing she has so much emotion and so much love to give everyone.  She's going to make an amazing mother and wife to some lucky man.

Cheyenne-she may be a new friend but hell she is amazing, another one to keep me laughign and smiling all the time.

Jackie-another new one, always happy and smiling she will make a great mother too.

Ash-I went to elemntry school with her, the only one from elementry that I'm friends with, she made a suprisingly good friend.

Justin-the newest of my friends, he may be older but he still makes an amazing friend to anyone.  He's a very trustworthy kid.  Just wish I had more time to know him one more year and he's off to Florida for college.

They are the reason why I can't go anywhere.  I also failed to mention that my father has another side to him that he would never let out on me.  He is quite cruel, the way he yells at my step sisters and brother is ridiculous and since I barely see him I don't have the guts to talk to him about it and it makes me feel terrible, it took me up untill this year to really like my step sisters and brother and I don't want them to be treated like shit while my father treats me so special.  I may be his actuall daughter but thats no excuse.

As for my dating life I won't ever get into really.  I just keep telling myself not to like people cause well, I tend to date assholes so basically I'm telling myself not to trust any guy that would want to date me, I think they know I'm easily tricked into liking someone after a couple sweet things they say to me.  And then its over, as soon as its begun it's over.  So I don't find it fun to date anymore, I don't think a couple days of "I love you's" will make me feel any better when I'm only expecting it to end soon.

This Is The Break Point.

-v.rose

That music video is so insane and odd o_o yet i cant stop watching....

OMG OMG OMG JERK IT OUUUTTT the Caesars are amazing hahah.

As you can all see I'm feeling better than yesturday basically becaus eI woke up early and people immediatly started talking to me :] made me feel loved.  Oh and my music, I love my music.  I dont know what I'm doing today but I will update later when I know.  Mollyruth may stay over tonight.

Later.

UUUUUUUUUUUUHHHHHHHHHH.

SHE knows who I like now.  HE has a bit of an idea.  I shouldn't like HIM.

fucking hormones.

HE is an asshole. reminds me of ____ who also after a while of talking completely dissapeared and ignored me :/

HE is 13 years old and he asked me out I said no nicely and asked him not to flip out on me cause well....I don't want to date people.  I don't trust relationships right now.  BUT HE still flipped out and cursed at me and shit.. I blocked HIM.

I recently found out that HE really did like me.  It was HIS father that made HIM break up with me :[

But thats okay, it doesn't bother me as much as when HE broke up with me.  It's funny though cause all HIS friends AND brother hate the new girlfriend ;] hahaha.

Well then, I'm out for today. Later gators

(each color represents a different person)

so. haha. Me, Fi-Check, her lil sister and her sisters friend (and their father) went to Lake Compounce today.  Maaaan that place is fucking awesome.  The rides are amazing.  Me and FiCheck saw a cute lifegaurd, and anothe rone who got yelled at by a 7 year old black boy who threw a rock at the lifegaurd :/ hahahahahah.  I found my marriage flower, it's so pretty but now its almost dead :[ I don't have batteries so I can't take a picture :[[[.  After I found the flower, I saw a reaaally cute boy (you wouldnt have thought so, he was all longish hair grunge kid) and Fi Check was like hmm and I wa slike..I should ask him to marry me and give him my marriage flower :]

I didn't :/ cause well...I don't have the guts to actually approach a guy I don't know and think is cute/or I like.  I'm cappable of flirting from a distance or trust me I am capable of that -cough- HAHA (california I miissss youu <3).  But anyways yea...and me and Fi-Check bought Candylips his birthday presents...which we may have to force him to like :].  We also sa w aboy who had himself covered all up.  We call him the "AHH THE SUN!!" boy...oh yes..we are crafty.

yea..well....yea.
I left my computer for the day..GO ME

XD

I'm done :P

g'night

Vannerbaby RAWWRR

vanna got her braces tightened today...

she wants to cry :[

cry vanna baby

I'm going to see the Descent tonight...it's showing at 7:50 at the south hadley mall.

I'm gonna have a heart attack.

:[

over and over the same things upset me so much.  I'm sick of playing it off like im happy for people and they actually believe me.  "you two are so cute! I'm so happy for you!" no, really I'm not, not anymore.  I'm at my boiling point.  Because of these happy relationships all my friends are in, I barely see them anymore, this is why I look forward to school so much, thats my hang out time with my "friends"  Where relationships don't get in the way as much.

I'm just so upset that I can't have an outside social life, away from school.  If I do, I MAYBE see a couple people once or twice in a month.  Thats only if I'm lucky.  I mean sure we have all planned things before to get together but there's always something wrong.  I try every once and a while when I go out to look good, to maybe have someone glimpse at me.  I'm sick of even trying, I shouldnt have to.  Friends are always saying oh your gorgeous savannah, your so pretty" and yet look at me, I don't date people, you don't see guys coming up to me and talking to me.  Are they afraid that I will reject them and mock them or something?  What si it about me that keeps the opposite sex so far away.  Am I trying to hard? Its not like I go around talking to every cute guy I see, cause well, I don't occasionally Ill be stupid and say hi or something to some kid I dont even know but its not like that gets me anywhere, they just smile and say hi back and we get along with our lives.  And lets not forget the fact that my last two boyfriends were older than me and not ONE guys MY age has flirted with me or asked me out on a date or to be ina  relationship or how ever the hell shit works. (unless of course its a dorky guy, they don't seem to think im threatning).

And soem assholes have let me know that they think Im the prudest girl ever.  Well buttfucks do you SEE ME DATING ANYONE!? HOW THE HEL AM I PRUDE IF I DONT HAVE SOMEONE TO DO SHIT WITH!?

I hope you fucking die.

I don't think any of my girlfriends have gone longer than a year maybe even 3 months without hooking up with someone.

Ive become a second hand friend.

Ive become last resort in the dating life.

I'm an off to the side person.

an untouched untamed girl.

-savannah rose. 

The memory of being happy.

It's funny how you cal it beign happy when your with your friends and family having a great time.

but when your holding hands cuddling with the one person you truly like, it gives happy a whole new outlook.  I miss that feeling, the different happy, the better happy.

but enough of that, I'm just happy right now to have these people I barely know making me crack up and shit.

I love the strangers. they cannot judge well for they do not know me.  But hell they make good friends.

:]

L.O.V.3.

People reaaally like to brag about shit don't they?

okaaay maybe they aren't bragging but still....I dont need to hear about what the fuck you did with people, or how happy you are.  Yea call me a shitty friend, but really, I dont wanna hear it.  If you were as lonely as I have been you would say the same thing.

so stfu and go tell one of your other friends thats IN a relationship about your good times and how happy you are, you two can trade information.

the end.

v.rose.

uuuh. I dunno, my kitty is nice, he loves me.

I'm in love with Johnny Depp still.

LOVE LOVE

I'm all bored.

today was Candylips's 17th birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAAYY woohooo

you are older than me. youuuu suuuck.

I still love you and your candylips though.

graaag graaag RAWRR

um.

THE END

<3 miss vanna rose

Uhm. Well another day, more of nothing to do but chores.  I really can't wait for school to start, I mean come on, I've resulted to READING in my spare time, not many teenagers do that these days.  XD

So anyways, I like Blink 182 songs...  I like my book.  I wish i had friends over right now.  I'm so lonely :[

I wanna watch the movie Spirited Away, thats one hell of a movie.

I also wanna watch the little mermaid, its just so magical and pretty.  I wish I had all the disney movies that I grew up with.

I miss my childhood, it was so fun and there was nothing to worry about ever, I was just a little girl who wanted to have fun and eat junkfood.

well.....

im ouuutski.

<3

I Want To Be In Love

   Like The People In Movies

            It May Be Fake

                But I Continue To Envy

                        The Dream World

....

HI MOLLYRUTH!

ZOMG teahcers preach and im a jerk??

IM FIGHTING FOR THE RIGHT TO PARTY DAMNIT

I continue to tell myself I'm not gonna date for a long time, I give myself maybe a year (watch this be the year people start noticing me and ask me out).  I know I'm gonan develop feelings for people, but thats somehting I know I cant stop, only dely and slowly forgot about.  I've succefully managed to do that with one person so far.  It's too bad my fucking numbskulled ex bf decided to start talking to me again. Wtf is he thinking, doe she know how much he can upset someone by doing what he's doing?  I don't think he knows.  And well, frankly I don't have the heart to tell him to fuck off cause he's being nice to me right now.  Ye ai know what yer all saying "well he's the one who was an ass and left YOU in the first place" yea yea I know, but thats in the past, I rarely think about the past cause well, it hasn't held such good memories for me in that area.

I just hope to god that this year I don't make a fool out of myself, I can't afford to miss class time cause I'm crying my eyes out.  I don't think the guidance counselers can help me much more than they have in the past year.  I want a pshyciatrist, but who will pay? I can't tell my mother, she will try and talk to me and nothing good comes form that.

and now I find myself talkign to people I don't know about these things, its my second haven to talk to strangers about this.  I know how to find the right strangers to talk to who won't judge me.  This was a suprise though, someone who could relate

vanna: are you miserable like me?
anonomys: I suppose, in a way. I'm miserable, and yet... somewhat happy.
vanna: well at least i know that someone of the opposite sex is on the same page as me
vanna: that makes me feel better
anonomys: Yea, usually helps.
anonomys: Especially when your misery is about the opposite sex.
vanna: yea.
anonomys: You know, if you've never had harsh pain from a relationship, I really hope you never have to.
anonomys: It's so horrible... the worst feeling. It's undescribable.
vanna: honestly after relizing that I probably will have to go through it.
vanna: im afraid
anonomys: As you should, but don't allow your fear to cloud your judgement.
vanna: thats probably what im gonan end up doing
vanna: all I see around me are guys treating girls liek assholes
vanna: and a very few of them treating girls nicely and fair
vanna: and knowing my luck and how easily persuad i am, Im gonna end up with an asshole.
vanna: and havign that thought in my head
vanna: its just keeping me from moving foward
vanna: i dont want to move forward

i can't go forward. I'm going to avoid it for as long as i can.  I'm just afraid of everything.  Afraid enough that it makes me cry.  Im also afraid that if I do let my feelings get the better of me, I'm gonna let out my heart and be heartbroken, then what will I do?  Will I hurt myself, will i commit suicide, will I run away, just keep running from it?  I'm afraid of what I will do.  My emotions have been pushed so far in the past 3 years.  And I know that once you start thinking about suicide and other things, then you obviosly have a problem on yer hands.

I don't know.

I have the love of my friends.

I have the love of my family.

I just don't have the love of someone else.

Something I miss more and more of everyday.

But not having it is as well, keeping me from getting hurt.

Singning Off.

-Savannah Rose Taylor. 06'

everyone BE HAPPY FOR ME.

I got the underside of my hair dyed FINALLY. Its a dark red right now.  I also got a Clotta from the fair the other night that I went to with Miss Ruth.  We watched horse pulls. I felt bad for the horses of course :[

Besides all this I'm fairly good, I'm still preeeetty depressed and shit but since Molly was over I was all..HIDE HIDE depression >.<  she managed to tell that I was upset a couple times when she was on the phone with Jeremy.  He's a sweet kid but still, I don't really have guys calling me when they are feeling down.  I'm capable of talking to people >.<

yeaaa uuh.

there's that person who seems like they are upset at me a bit, I think they though I realy was being a bitch earlier today but I wasn't I just had molly pver an dI couldnt talk and this person said something that kinda upset me and then they wouldnt tell me what they did and blah blah >.< and now they are not caling me liek they said they would :[

this is why I don't wanna too attached to new people, I don't know what will happen because I barely know them and they barely know me.

:/

-cry cry cry- baaaaaby

IM SICK OF THESE MOTHERFUCKING SNAKES ON THIS MOTHERFUCKING PLANE!

:] see it  SOOON. sources say it kicked ass ;]

I'm pretty uuh out of it.

I'm overly confused and it sucks.  Well BOTH my ex's have decided to talk to me again, they both pretty much apologized for what they did to me (breaking up with me rudely..) and yea.. I'm really confused and kfjsbkjsbdg they shouldnt be talking to me its like..ZOMG FLASHBACKS

yea well ill talk more about it later.

<3

yea so I was talking to one of the ex's last night and yea...he brought up how he didn't give me a christmas present and how he wanted to.

Mind you people who don't know, he broke up with me before christmas.  So I asked him why he didn't give it to me, I dont remember what he said but he did tell me that it was a braclet and he still had it.

The whole time im thinking.."wtf...you have a new girlfriend, why are you telling me that you still have my braclet when your probabaly just gonna give it to yer skankface??" yes i said skankface.  I'm pretty sure he has no idea about his girlfriends whore like behavior before he met her.  Weell I won't be the one to tell him.  Mel wanted me to tell him that she had a message for him "I'm Wesley's ex girlfriend, the guy who fingered yer girlfriend in the movie theatre"

thank god I didn't say anything, I know my ex has anger issues and I don't wanna get on his bad side.  I mean don't get me wrong, he is a real sweetheart when you know him but still, he has jealousy issues and anger issues. not cool.

but um yea, I have a long day with Miss Birthday girl Mel today so I gotta go get ready.

Laaaater

<3

alright so. Mel's party was kickass. I met all her amazing amiga's and then we went downtown and I met some of the guys, one was gay, it made me happy :].  And one of the guys seemed like a real sweetheart, the gay one and this othe rguy were all...DRUUGSS WOOHOO i mena don't get me wrong, they were sober and they were cool, but ...uh...drugs...ewwww.  Yea so..it was fun.

But uh yea...I just relized that I have bene workign hard to lose weight and eat healthy.  Why am I trying to look good??? Who the hell cares if I look good?  Guys don't look at me anymore (not including my amigo's).  It's just I feel like an idiot, for trying to look good all the time, its a complete waste of my time and effort.  So yea now im sitting here with a can of Fdiet Dr Thunder and a bag of popcorn.

welcome back to your life Savannah.  Hope it doesn't suck as bad as it always does.

yea. its a shitty day outside. makes me feel miserable.

Tonight is Brittany's birthday party. She's 14 now :]  I met Brittany during my 8th grade year at HRHS when she was starting 7th.  Her oldest sister Megan gave me a ride to school (along with my friend Brittany B.) and she picked up Brittany on the way there to bring her too.  Apparently I gave a weird look to Brittany cause thats what she told me haha.  Well then my 9th grade year O moved to Southampton and Brittany live sin Southampton as well, we ended up taking the bus together and well, me being as social as I am, I made a new friend of her :]  Now during the school year she will walk or get dropped off at my bus stop to get on with me so we don't feel extremly lonely haha.  She's a good kid.

So anyways. Last night I was talking to some people. Troy- we talked about music and he got me into some of his Metal stuff :]

Fluffy- we talked liek idiots as usuall haha and we talked about getting all the old friends together for a Chinese dinner sorta thing before school starts.

Babymaker- we talked like freaks as usuall as well haha. We also talked shortly about the chinese dinner thing.

Brittany- we just babbled.

:[ I missed the superhero show last night so I don't know if me and Candylips's favorite hero won :[[

oh well, he will probably call and tell me anyway haha.

So anyways again.  I'm listnigng to a bunch of music that I uploaded last night onto my portableplaylist.

You should check it out, its a bit confusing but if yer smart you'll learn how to use it liek I did.

Portableplaylist.com

and if you can't find the music you want on the music search there then go to

Singingfish.com

to get music URLS that you want :]

alright well I'm done here for now.

Later loves.

p.s. don't be fooled, I might not have written anythign depressing, but I'm still ultra depressed smdfhsdkfjbsdg

yea. I feel like complete shit right now.

Britts party was great.

her cousin is mad cute.

he hit on me..from a distance...and i ended up with a marshmallow in my drink.

haaha

well uh i woke up next morning and i started to freak out with allergies

and its bene like that ALL day

and i even barfed a bit in my sink.

the sneezing will NOT stop.

>.<

im out.

I gotta pee.

the end.

This weekend I have been with my Godparents and they keep me busy with the family picnic and art projects.  I got to visit the love of my life. Mr Candylips while he was working..SOO PWRISE.

This place keeps my mind off of being miserable.  And luckily there is a computer, I've talked with Jimmy Jim Jim Jim we are trying to figure out a way to hang out sometime it will basically be a date...wow... first date....haha.

Uhhh Justins a sweetheart cause he calls me yaayy me.

HOMIGOD Joan Jett is fucking amaaazing. She loves rock n' roll ;]

uuuuh well..I have rice..Limewire...aim...a bottle of water..and a good book...I'm set..

Later Lovvvess <3

-miss Vanna rose

First day of schoooool YAY.

aww Steve Irwin died :[

I grew up watching the crocodile hunter and I loved it, Steve gave me hope that animal lovers were still out there.

R.I.P. Steve

<3

weeell

I'm off to schoooool....WOOHOO

laaters ;]

uuuh.  School is pretty sweet aside from the amaazing amount of homework.

uuum.  I love you people.

like..ALL of you.

lets have babies.

lots of orgie.sexing.baby fun

MUAH

rawwr.

alright..Tommy boy and Super troopers are funny ass movies, Tommy Boy more than Super Troopers..

Anyways.

He wants to hang out soon.  I do to, so well..I can get to know him ya know, but from what Ive heard He has changed a lot and has been acting weird...so..I dunno..

He is such a sweeeetheart and I can't but say I'm practically in love XD. He's just sooo nice and..like...there for me.  He talks to me more than any other friend of mine and Ive only known Him for like..i dunno 2 years now?  It's nice to know someone of the male species cares about me in some way. haha.

mmm bagels are gooood. so is chocolate milk...

Allergies SUUCK i was up forever last night sneezing my life away.  And I have like allergie aftershock this morning, my nose is redish and it's still a bit icky >.<

I was supposed to try and hang out with Him today buuut I would rather not have Him see me like this :/

yeaa...I'm never really super worries about how i look, but when I feel kinda like shit, I know not to go anywhere...kinda..hah.

lmao

new kids pretty cute.

he seems to think my ass is nice as well.

lmfao thanks Bonita.

everyones chill.

Casey of all people called me o_o WHOOAA

I'm kicking my hormones in the butt I'm starting to lay off the whole liking that one person.....kinda...I'm working on it damnit >.<

I had my braces tightened..I hurt all over :[[[[

I want my skydancer toys back :[

FIN.

p.s. he is being sweet....damn him...this doesn't help!!

yea I love my friends.

I love that one kid.

I'm crushing on that new kid.

POTT ???!!

rawwwwwr

ever since the year of school began, on the weekends, more often than not, I find myself crying alone imagining my friends having  agreta time whilest i sit at home and wondering why I'm not there, or anywhere for that matter.

What sets me apart from everyone?

So theres this party tonight, I'm pretty sure it's on behalf of my friends 16th birthday that just happened.

Funny thing is..well...I'm at home...I wasn't even told about this party...and theres a boy at the party that I'm madly in love with...and if it wasn't for me they wouldnt have really known eachother...

at least..thats how I see it.

and that boy. I think about so much, he's the focus of my crying.  I want him to know that I love him.

and well...

i don't even know what else to type..theres so much to say, to be spoken

I turned 16 on March 11th.

The party was great I guess.

A couple that I wanted to be their never showed up...I was pretty sad.

Ya know..people talk about being a teenager,making it sound like a life of constant prty and fun.

It's not...at all.

Only for the kids who drink all the time,smoke pot all the time....the kids who aren't really going far in life.

But then there are the run of the mill kids.Like me.

Ya know...I don't know any other person like me. Absolutely no one.

I don't smoke anything,I pretty much never drink,I have never gone to a party (not including birthdays dumbass)...and I have a plan in life.

It makes me feel so....awkward...how did all these innocent kids become such idiots with their life threatning habits...it doesn't even phase them.Drinking is a good time,hell they don't even hide it.Myspace is full of teen pictures of stoned kids,and drunk kids.Theyre captions even tell the story.

I don't know what to think about people these days....even the most innocent person...has a sinful story behind them (though I don't believe in religion).This person I know...they had sex.In fact..all the people I hang out with have lost their virginity....theyre all 16...well..one is 17 but whatever.

Social Life......I don't even think I have one. I spend my days and night son the computer chatting with cyber friends.It's almost as if I talk to them more than my actually friends...

What is going on?

Where do i stand in life?

Why am I so different?

Why is everyone so messed up?

I hate the world....society is committing suicide.

You can't deny it.

With each year,kids are drinking and smoking and having sexual intercourse at a younger age...EVERY year.

As Americans we put money before our mother Earth.

Oh look the sun's gonna burn us up...waaaait....gold bars? We want those...what were you saying about us all dieing??

Hmm..maybe it's just America..I hate America.

Hate this..

Hate that...

Hate you...

Hate me...

Hate it all.

No,not emo.Short for emotional.Is EMO in the dictionary? Nope.

You still think calling me Emotional means that I'm some sad depressed child with side swipped hair and skinny pants and so on and so forth?

Look around you.

Look at all these girls with the same hair.

Look at yourself!

You laugh,cry,scream etc.

Those are emotions.

Man....your so emo.

So emo.

Was this a waste of your time?

I'm sorry.

Feel free to complain and debate and argue.

I'm not going to respond.

I'm one a over 6 Billion.

My opinion has bene voiced before...I know it has.

I'm not THAT unique.

I don't recall what I was getting at.

Oh yea.

Fuck America.

Fuck being a teenager.

Fuck money.

Fuck it all.

.....understand me yet?

~V

I hung out with Eskimo yesturday.

We hate young kids who pester and don't listen.

Uhmm....

I don't really know what to say...

I got tan.

I talked to Bryan finally,I miss him :(

He had this great story about him and Keenan and this crazy black guy in California, hehe.

I'm in love...with a lot of people.Generally lately I have been pretty happy.I mean..summer started,I'm a Junior now...things just seem better.

Hah...my mother said to me today that she thinks this year I'll have a boyfriend and that he will be so significant that when he breaks up with me (because she gaurentee's this will happen),I will experience heartbreak for the first time.

Honestly I think I have experienced it already...there are plenty of people who are in my life or who used to be,who have made me feel torn in half.

But anyways,lets lift the mood somehow...ah yes,me and Corey Pac.We are Mad Libs pals.

Here's an example:

Corey: There once was a happy piece of brocolli named Corey. One fine day Corey ______ when he fund oyut that his _____ had ______ on the fridge. This made corey so furious..furious enough to go out and purchase_______ at the _______. When he got home he found _______sitting on his ______, and then they all laughed and ate a nice big bowl of ______. 
vanna: screamed, cat, sex, bikini wax,Big E,Jesus,grandmas lap,cookie crisp.

hahah.

Uhmm. I had a great time over at Cheyenne's with her and Jackie the other night.Details can not be shared hahahaha.

But we did manage to eat an entire pack of powdered donuts and doritos.

Best Friends For Life.

Toodles darlings.

<3

Hmm...I haven't cried in a while.It's pretty refreshing.

"C'mon twist a little closer babe,let me know that your mine.." The Beatles Twist and Shout.

Uhm,I'm supposed to chill with cheyenne,Mike Hathaway and this guy named Zack,theyre trying to hook us up.

This guy is in for the surprise of his life when he meets me >.<

I can't wait to go to California.

I'm only going for 2 weeks though cause I don't think dad can afford to keep me out any longer :(

I'm either going the last 2 weeks of July or the second and third week of August.

I'm really sketchy on what my Jahova witness grandfather will say about my dyed hair and eyebrow piercing. He'll probably think I'm a fucking demon child. Wonderful.

I'm working on healing the infection in my eyebrow.I'm using all natural Camamille Tea to soak on it.That and salt water of course.

sweet and now mom's gonna yell at me for nto doing the dishes before she got home for lunch.

Toodles!!

I Love this. My eyes are so noticeable in this picture. It kinda looks like I'm coming out of the rock haha.

I don't know why the p in pee is capitalized,and I don't know if I spelt that word correctly.

What I do know is that I am being interviewed tomarrow....hmm...

I still have to pee though.

Tomarrow shall be fun answering questions (:

Toodles!

Today I am being interviewed by the whole of Mindsay's bloggers.

(:

The fire alarm just went off....yet there's no fire...

I called mumsy to let her know.

She said if I was showering with the door open (which I was since no ones home) than more than likely the steam sent off the alarm.

So all's good.

(:

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

[Chorus]
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that

[Chorus]

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]

[Chorus]

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

By Dashboard Confessional.

My favorite song for the past couple weeks.It was made for Spider-Man 2 Soundtrack.Hence the dangling string thing in the song.

YAY SPIDEY!

Last nights dream was all over the place..like all of my dreams are.It went something like this (it will be followed by explinations) :

I started off in a theme park..probably six flags..me,mom,Aiden,Kevin,and Ally were riding that ride that takes you far up then you drop.Some places call it Superman.Kevin just..walked away..I don't know why.My mother was going on the ride a lot more than anyone else.Sometimes it was like...I was riding too,while mom was because I was watching her..but the way the ride is built that would be impossible for me to see her while i was on too.Anyways,I eventually rode with Ally and while we were on it,we sat at the top waiting to be dropped..and I was telling her about the accident with the girl who had her feet basically sliced off at Kentucky's Six Flags.

Then I was somewhere else.

I was on that dating show "Age of Love".I I imagined a British male host.Joey came in and told me that he thought the host was cute.I kept saying.."Jon is going to have to pick a 40 year old..".But i was thinking of Joey because he's in his 30's.Someone kept telling me to shut-up about it.Oh and then I was walking on the road with my dad..and Megan B. We dropped a bunch of stuff and we had to shove it over cause a car was coming by.That was it.

Now and explination of who people are.

Aiden is my 4 year old little brother,Kevin is his 30 something year old father,Ally is a little girl i have known since she was born (her and her siblings call me sissy because I have been so close with the family in the past),Joey is my mothers gay guy friend,Jon is a boy I go to school with who is my age and perfectly straight,and Megan B is my neighbor who is one grade below me.

PLEASE: if you are good at interpretting dreams,do message me as soon as you can..I have another dream..I'll make a new blog post for it.

Like the blog before this, I will explain after I tell my dream.Now what you should know before I post my dream is that I had this dream over the course of a couple months...the same dream over and over,only two things would change on and off (who was chasing me and if i died or not).This also involves a LOT of fantasty so don't make fun of me for it.

Now onto the dream:

I always start off sitting on the edge of a cliff looking down on a beautiful grassy field of horses and unicorns grazing.This boy comes and sit down beside me,he has no face so I don't know what to make of it.I hold onto his arm as if me and him are dating or something.I'm happy.Then there is a tap on my shoulder,(it's either Chucky the killer Doll,Freddie Kruger or the 3 hyenas from the Lion King)I look back to face the villain(s) I stand up and I start running.The boy is gone I don't know where he is.Now I either whistle or i continue running.If I whistle,the clouds go dark and this massive black unicorn comes out of the clouds.I jump on it's back,the boy is there and thats when i wake up.BUT if I didn't whistle..I eventually run off the cliff..then I wake up.

The only significance i can explain is Chucky,Freddy and the 3 hyenas.As a child my mothe rloooved watching horror and scary movies and she often had me watch them with her.Thats where Chucky and Freddy come from.As for the hyenas,my favorite childgood movie was The Lion King.But the hyenas never scared me before...

Now as I said before,if anyone out there reads this and your good at interpretting dreams PLEEASSE help me out.My dreams are getting crazier and wierder...

Thanks.

-V

I let my[i had to edit this cause she yelled at me]BEST friend cheyenne dyed my hair...

I'm scared....

she doesnt wanna be bff's anymore....

she says Tears,which means she crying.....btu not really...

this room smells (:

heeeheee

uhmmm OMG

I'm supposed to go with cheyenne to the fireworks in E-town now aaand she's trying to get this one kid to go cause he said he wouldnt mind meeting me and according to cheyenne im gonna get on all fours and ya know...do my creature growls and shit.I'll scare him outta his mind muwhahahaha.

See this is how my love life will be.

I just had to take away my mints from Cheyenne cause she nearly choked on the last one..and yet she still wants more...

I love my bff (:

<3

We just gave away my puppy...I'm sad...I alwasy get depressed when ANYTHING happens to my pets.

..well...he has a better home now....

Jack T. I miss you already.

<3

PETER GABRIEL LYRICS

"In Your Eyes"

  Love I get so lost, sometimes days pass and this emptiness fills my heart when I want to run away I drive off in my car but whichever way I go I come back to the place you are all my instincts, they return and the grand facade, so soon will burn without a noise, without my pride I reach out from the inside in your eyes the light the heat in your eyes I am complete in your eyes I see the doorway to a thousand churches in your eyes the resolution of all the fruitless searches in your eyes I see the light and the heat in your eyes oh, I want to be that complete I want to touch the light the heat I see in your eyes love, I don't like to see so much pain so much wasted and this moment keeps slipping away I get so tired of working so hard for our survival I look to the time with you to keep me awake and alive and all my instincts, they return and the grand facade, so soon will burn without a noise, without my pride I reach out from the inside in your eyes the light the heat in your eyes I am complete in your eyes I see the doorway to a thousand churches in your eyes the resolution of all the fruitless searches in your eyes I see the light and the heat in your eyes oh, I want to be that complete I want to touch the light, the heat I see in your eyes in your eyes in your eyes in your eyes in your eyes in your eyes in your eyes

--------------------------------

Sorry about the messyness of all the lyrics (how they are bunched together all ickily and stuff).But uhm yea,I heard the song in the movie "Say Anything" a total 80's flick BUT it's really not that good...at least that's my opinion..go and rent it,judge for yourself.

Toodles love!

(:

The past two days were hilariously fun.

On Wed. I went to Cheyenne's apartment,we watched Epic movie,went to Wal-Mart and bought t-shirts from the mens section and some fabric paints.We went back to her apartment and we began making 'Free Hugs" t-shirts.We also started decorating a pair of our pants.

We went and picked up Jackie at her house around like..8. I got to see my guy buddy Friz (Zach) which was nice 'cause I haven't seen him at all this summer.

We took Jackie back to Cheyenne's.We let Jackie make a Free Hugs shirt too while we re-watched Epic movie for her.

At 10:30 we walked over to Friendly's..they weren't very happy 'cause they close at 11 and we were the ONLY people to show up..and all we wanted was icecream hahaha. This guy that Cheyenne and her friend Mike have bene trying to hook me up with named Zack,he works there and was workign there that night.I didn't get to see him but before we left Cheyenne asked our waitress to tell him I said hi haha.

Oh wait i forget to emntion we walked there int he pouring rain. And upon leaving it was raining even harder outside hahahaa.

So we got back to Cheyenne's and we broke out Twister.Maaaan it was intesne the match bewteen me and Cheyenne took forever haha you should have seen us...we were ridiculous,purposely going for the dots next to one another so we could stick out butts into eachothers faces hahaahaha.

We all eventually tired out and slept at about 4 in the morning.

NEXT DAY!!

we woke up at like 9 somehow..we played one round of morning twister.We got ready,threw on our Free Hugs t-shirts and began our 45 min. walk to downtown.

We get thereand immediatly go to a chinese resturant to eat Rice and Lo-Mein.Then we left and walked around aimlessly looking for hugs.We came out of one store and spotted a group of kids with a Free Hugs Poster!!

hahah coincidence much!?

yupp we all had a huge group hug.

In Total I had the most hugs of the day 9.Cheyenne had 6 and Jackie had about...4 or 5.

It was fun anyways.

LOOVVEEEE!

~V

one of those times where I wish there was a special someone here to just hug me..and not let go..

-V

So my friend Ashar thinks I should write a story of my life.

Maybe I will...I love writing stories...but I'm best with roleplays..playing a fake character.

I have two lovely girls who I place in stories and plots and settings of all sorts.

Isolde C. Graim : She is a mutant belonging in something like an X-Men movie.She is as old as the Earth itself though because of her elven blood she has the appearing youth of a 20 year old.She is about 5 feet 4 inches tall,she has foamy green eyes due to continueing blindness.Her skin is pale and splashed with freckles (she is an Irish lass),she has long wavy red hair reaching her waist.Her lips are painted a deep red.She is seen wearing the same old celtic gown always,it is layered with emerald green and off-white fabric.In some freak genetic screw up she has also grown a pair of oversized green and black butterfly wings; They are of no use to her though.Her mutant powers are control over the element of Earth.She speaks with tree's and plants of all sorts and she controls their movement.

he lives within the forest most of the time within a hollowed out giant Willow tree.

My other deary is

Vienna "Vee" Aritrhal : Vee is a New Age vampire,a pure blood she is only 17 years of age.She lives under the streets of large cities,within the sewers with the rest of her Kindred.She lives under the government rule of the Camarilla,a large powerful group of veeery old vampires.Vee is a Prince of one of the many vampiric clans.Gangrel,they are known as outsiders,as soon as they are of age they are on their own and therefore they tend to be the toughest of their kind.But if they are lucky enough to find Vee one night she takes them in and they act like old pals.Vee's appearance is slightly futuristic (outfit wise).Her skin is pale of course,her eyes are classicly vampiric,electric blue and bright white.Her hair is a bright shade of red and is often gelled up in  every which way.She has a pair of silver colored goggles,a symbol of her strength because everyone knows vampires are extremley allergic to silver).She wears layered clothes,an extra small black vest,underneath that is a see through black tinted see through long sleeve shirt.Her pants are tight leather skinny jeans.She wears knee high flat boots,she has tucked inside them a pair of small daggers of course for self defense.

thats all I have thus far untill they are placed into plots and settings.

I looove them dearly.

No stealing please I worked quite hard to imagine these up (:

"But I want you..."

things are looking better for me as the summer goes on.

I like it alot (:

I haven't had that nice feeling in a ages...hmm...

just know that I have a smile on my face.

~V

I dunno...I feel awkward and..I don't really know what I'm doing.

In all honesty I'm completly terrified to open myself up to another guy again...I just don't have any trust for them.

I feel bad about that...but ya know I can't help it,us chicks have had our share of assholes that we've dated and its ended in misery and occasionally us leaving behind all trust we used to have for the male gender.

Well I was just starting to get used to not having  a boyfriend and not caring about it.

And now he comes along...I want this so bad...but i don't...what am I doing?

I don't know what to think.

I don't know what to do...

I don't know what to say...

I hate being a teenager...

~V

"Is that your picture its may I say as a writer a soulfull face a face that can launch a thousand ships a face that one wants to marry, for all time a face of wisdom and strength .Jack"

(:

many thanks,that was one of the nicest artistic things I've ever been told.

from last night:

I am kidnapped by two mutated looking people around their late 30's i think.

They keep me in this abandoned hotel,I remember seeing a sign of its name but I forget now...but uhm most of the time I spend with two people inside this elevator on the 24th floor specifically.They have ONE phone and somehow they managed to screw up the phone so that I can't call certain numbers (like my mom dad,anyone I know in general or the police).I eventually get smart though and press 0 to get the operator,then I ask for the police station.I tell them as fast as I can that I was kidnapped and stuff and they come and find me.The people get arrested,the police escort me outside.

The boy I like is standing behind the police line waiting to see me,but I run to my mother and father first.

Thats it....hmm.

So I was feeling awefully selfish last night.Steven kept calling as usuall which I'm okay with ya know? BUT he was with his two guy pals and I dunno,the way he was acting beacsue they were around pretty much pisse dme off.Nothing too bad but still.

I wanted to be able to talk to him witout his pals there.

Fucking retarded....

uhmm

so yea I hate fone (phone) conversations.You should have heard me and Steven's,I was quiet the ENTIRE time.

I really do hate talking on the fone,hence me rarely calling my girlfriends back.

hmph.

bad mood (not pms).But oh well,its a new day!

toodles lovelys.

~V

oh maaan.

I'm beyond happy...

I never told you guys this but I've never made out with a guy before...

heh..

Steve was over today...we were down cellar watching a moooovie.

...

BAHAHA!

haha lovelovelovelove happy vannaaaa.

man lets just hope this lasts.

haha it was hilarious my hair kept getting in his way XD

oh god and he bit me ear...mmm.

(:

no this is not normal of me but hey..what can I say.

:P

toodles lovelys

~V

These past 2 weeks have been pretty great (:

My boyfriend Steven asked me out Friday of last week.He makes me smile a lot ^___^

And I hung out with him and my pal Dave a couple times,they're so much fun!

I'm happy...I'm really happy.

I haven't cried in a while,it's gooood.

I worked yesturday with Dave it was much fun,then i went home and I was so sooooree. haha.

So the other day I wanted to get 90's hit songs for my playlist.I did a google search and found 200 90's hit songs.

Now I grew up in the 90's so I went effin' crazy with these songs.

Closing Time by Semisonic, and  She's So High by Tal Bachman are two of my favorites so far.

thats all for now,TOODLES!

So, I'm back! Nope I'm not dating that Steven kid anymore, no sir-e.

Now I'm with James Harrington, we've been together for almost 5 months (my longest relationship!!!).

This may not be somethign you want to hear but we lost our virginity to eachother, kind of a big deal guys.  I'm glad it was him though, ya know that feeling? Yuppp.

Uhm, March 11th I turned 17! GASP! I got my permit a couple of months ago (yea yea I'm slow to get things taken care of).

I toured my first college a couple weeks ago!  MassArt (Massachusetts College of Art and Design) it was amaaazing and soon I'm touring Hampshire College.

OOO I just spotted a male cardinal outside, SOOO gorgeous!!! OO and I also spy robins!

annyyyways. Uhm, Life's been great, my Junior year has been a blast, my grades are amazing (A's, B's and a steady C in algebra II).

I dunno what else to tell ya!  Things are looking up for once, big time! Oh! That kid Dave I mentioned in my last blog, yea we're best friends now haha, I'm not even kidding when I say that me and him are like the same person, it's intense haha.  And I'm still best friends with Cheyenne of course!! She was sick today ): my poor darling.

Alrighty Then!

I'm outtiee.

PEACE&[insert hearts]  

If your really good at the game, beaten it a thousadn times or whatever i could really use some tips on getting past whats-his-face, the guy with a bunch of swords at Beasts Castle, I can't tell you just how frustrated I am with it haha.

So yea, hit me up with them tips !!!

Heyyyy guys!

Lets exchange "good" music:

Your Gaurdian Angel-Red Jumpsuit Apparatus

Unbelievable-EMF

Where'd you Go-Fort Minor

Dear Mr. President-P!nk

Maps-Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Walkie Talkie Man-Steriogram

Take On Me-Aha

Around the World-ATC

Download This Song-MC Lars

Summer of '69-Bryan Adams

I Caught Fire-The Used

Cherry Lips(Go Baby Go)-Garbage

Brighter Than Sunshine-Aqualung

Beautiful Day-U2

Closing Time-Semisonic

The Space Between-The Dave Matthews Band

Bleeding Love-Leona Lewis

The Bartender-Rehab

Don't Stop Believing-Journey

Bittersweet Symphony-The Verve

Outer Space-Freezepop

Fat Lip-Sum 41

You Gte What You Give-New Radicals

Easy,Lucky,Free-Bright Eyes

Dirty Glass-Dropkick Murphys

How Far We've Come-Matchbox Twenty

Stolen-Dashboard Confessional

Vindicated-Dashboard Confessional

Almost Lover-A Fine Frenzy

Earthquake-Family Force 5

Love Addict-Family Force 5

Fat Bottomed Girls-Queen

Grace Kelly-Mika

The Middle-Jimmy Eat World

etc etc, oh yea, by the way, this isn't considered "Good" music to some of you I know, but these are just favorites of mine.  There is more that I will add eventually.Post some of your own favorites to share with me and other bloggers (:

Or lemme' know what you think of my music selection!